Grief
A heavier grief washed over me last week, the fourth since the shelter-in-place order. While this grief feels similar to other kinds, it also has its own unique qualities with peculiar shades of emotions and offbeat rhythms. Like other grief, there is the out-of-body feeling of going through the motions in daily tasks as if from a few feet distance, the swings in emotions from anger to tears to numbness, the strange way in which life goes on. Unlike any other grief, this grief is shared with millions of others all of us now on shaky ground and some no longer with any ground left to stand on. There is so much loss everywhere at once our collective hearts are breaking. Through our individual grief, we have become suddenly more intimately connected with others in the shared experience of grief even in our profound isolation and aloneness. Grief has its own presence as it accompanies us through o...